This Sunday I finally met this one guy I've been talking with online.

Really, that's all the journal should have to include. That's big enough news. I mean I didn't even get to take advantage of the boy (WHO APPARENTLY WANTED ME TO DO SO), but yeah.

Aso: I've been dubbed "DJ Makes Me Happy in The Pants", which I am.

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Well. It's been forever. I'm usually on Connect now, though. Haha. I've had about 2774 hits on there, so you probably understand, yes? xD

Alright. I think I must be growing up or something...because for the first time in my life a guy made a move on me. Lemme set it up for you: We were sitting on the couch, side by side. His hand somehow wound up near my leg and his pinky-finger was kinda twitching...or so I thought....for like a half hour. After that, he kinda started going all over. But like not inappropriate. He was really slow and gentle and stuff...and it wasn't like just on the side of my leg, but on top and stuff. Haha. Best part? We were watching South Park and he wouldn't look at me.

How rit-ahh-did is my life? Gad.

Also, here's some schweet new music I found: [link]
I gotta say that I love these guys. Addictive, they are.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007, 10:23 PM CST [General]

Yeah. So right now things aren't so good. I feel like crap. I feel useless and stressed and stupid all at the same time. I'm considering just being one of those people that just sit there and do nothing all their lives. Seems a lot more rewarding than this. I feel like I can't make a difference and that the world just has to stay the way it is. I'm nothing more than a speck. I'm useless. I'm not asking for help. I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm just trying to say that I'm not myself anymore. I can't even make sense out of myself. I dunno what I'm doing here. I just dunno anything. I'm just useless. lol. There's not much else to say. This is the low point, I'll bet (HOPE). Because I was seriously looking to score some grass yesterday. And now I hate myself for it. I considered stealing some alcohol from my aunt lol. I'm dumb. I can't help it either. I dunno what's wrong with me lately. I just feel like bawling my eyes out and making sure nobody's around to see me.

Sorry that I'm not myself.

Do me a favor and don't respond to this blog post; that way I'll feel less ashamed of myself. I just thought you had a right to know what's going on.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007, 05:37 AM CST

So here's the deal: I'm AWAKE. Apparently I have to wake up pretty early in order to get to college on time; commuters have a long way to walk. Today's the first official day of classes and I'm still sitting here in my pajamas....blogging on Connect....

Anyway, I went to the commuter orientation thinger yesterday, which was kind of scary, but I feel good that I got through it. =] I got kind of depressed once they were like "If you have a 10:00 class, make sure you're here for a 9:00", at which point I turned to my neighbor and made a smart-a$$ remark like "your mom has a 9:00", or something equally unrelated. So I plan to wake up at 5 every morning. To me, that's easier: I have a full 3.5 hours to get myself ready for class and I won't miss the Dave Ryan in the Morning Show. =]

Thanks for reading, and take care!